I am the source of my reality.
I use my voice.
I take up space.
I make my presence known.
It took me a very long time to own this as my truth. To trust in myself enough to know that it is up to me and only me to create my own safety in the world. To understand that I do not ever have to give anyone or anything this sort of power in my life.
And the result… freaking FREEDOM!
I can’t even tell you how much energy I put into staying small and trying to be invisible, thinking that was the best way to keep myself safe. Biting back my opinions, speaking with a softer tone, making sure I didn’t stand out. Blending.
I would notice it in conversations when I would use as few words as possible, in social settings when I would feel myself contract inward and silently observe, when I would ask so many questions about others and divert the topic away from me as soon as possible.
And then I would wonder why I felt so unseen and undervalued. Why I didn’t get noticed or feel...
Are you afraid of change?
Would you rather be unhappy than have to face the unknown?
Making the choice to move into uncertainty can bring up a lot of thoughts and emotions. As you sit and consider the future, pictures swirl in your head of all the things that could go wrong and next thing you know, fears get triggered. So much so that you may even decide that changing things up really isn’t worth it. Maybe you can just make the best of what you’ve got.
You aren’t alone with this line of thinking. Most people would prefer to be unhappy in the comfort of their present circumstances, even if they aren’t fulfilled or happy. Safety and familiarity are very tempting and can lure you into a state of numbness. Stay here long enough and you may find it close to possible to move forward.
When you create a habit of facing the unknown with fear, you train yourself to equate change with anxiety and dread. You look for all the things that could go wrong and talk yourself...